Well September, you showed signs of bringing me out of the doldrums at times and for the most part you did, although you left more doubts in my mind about certain aspects of my life. I don't really know what to make of you. Maybe that's why I have put off this letter.
I looked forward to you. An elongated weekend filled with BBQ's and other festivities was on the agenda. The holiday weekend had me laboring at home, fighting what started as a bad stomach ache and progressed to something worse. It cost me a day with some good people, eating and relaxation, always a good duo. A little respite from the bar as my social outlet. I took it with a grain of salt, as I figured it was better to be sick this weekend than the next. A few days later, my brother's birthday arrived with little or no fanfare. He had bigger things ahead.
In this time I also "met" someone new. An acquaintance from a time long ago. A friendship was born. Two hearts and minds that thought alike, but were in different places. In a different time, maybe we'd be more then just friends, who knows. But you helped me get through a difficult time. I can only apologize for my comments that made you decide against maintaining this friendship. I feel that if nothing else, we were someone to lean on, someone to trust with our feelings, if only through our messages and brief talks. I guess when the stakes are too high, the risk isn't worth the reward. I accept your decision, even if I do not agree with it. I miss you.
September brought my brother's union with his lovely wife Diana. I couldn't be happier for them and I'm proud of my brother for finding someone who gets him. If I prayed I'd pray for her sanity in the years to come, because 29 years of knowing him has tested mine. I won't repeat what has already been said in a previous blog, but September 13th was a special day. It will be difficult for anyone to top this day. The weekend couldn't have been a bigger success.
The last two weeks brought on Football, a BBQ, and somewhat tumultuous times for me and someone close to me. I somewhat came to terms with my new found status, but is it mutual. Things to preoccupy myself have made this month quite nice on many levels. I have a friend who has been there to listen to my stuff and I for them. I feel a lot closer to them now than I did even two weeks ago. It's nice at times to get new people's perspective.
If I have one gripe with September it is that you have decimated me financially. Lack of work, excessive spending (not all voluntary) and some bad habits have really tightened the screws. Many more nights spent at home than gallivanting about town.
I'm going to chalk up September as a good month, aside from the incredible weekend of the wedding, it's been a month of good and bad off-setting each other. Nothing too crazy, nothing too exciting other than that big event. I can handle months like September. October rolls in with promise for more money, playoff baseball, and possibly some new found friends or maybe some reconnecting with old. I look forward to October and the winter months with great optimism. I just feel something good on the horizon. Maybe it's just gas.
I looked forward to you. An elongated weekend filled with BBQ's and other festivities was on the agenda. The holiday weekend had me laboring at home, fighting what started as a bad stomach ache and progressed to something worse. It cost me a day with some good people, eating and relaxation, always a good duo. A little respite from the bar as my social outlet. I took it with a grain of salt, as I figured it was better to be sick this weekend than the next. A few days later, my brother's birthday arrived with little or no fanfare. He had bigger things ahead.
In this time I also "met" someone new. An acquaintance from a time long ago. A friendship was born. Two hearts and minds that thought alike, but were in different places. In a different time, maybe we'd be more then just friends, who knows. But you helped me get through a difficult time. I can only apologize for my comments that made you decide against maintaining this friendship. I feel that if nothing else, we were someone to lean on, someone to trust with our feelings, if only through our messages and brief talks. I guess when the stakes are too high, the risk isn't worth the reward. I accept your decision, even if I do not agree with it. I miss you.
September brought my brother's union with his lovely wife Diana. I couldn't be happier for them and I'm proud of my brother for finding someone who gets him. If I prayed I'd pray for her sanity in the years to come, because 29 years of knowing him has tested mine. I won't repeat what has already been said in a previous blog, but September 13th was a special day. It will be difficult for anyone to top this day. The weekend couldn't have been a bigger success.
The last two weeks brought on Football, a BBQ, and somewhat tumultuous times for me and someone close to me. I somewhat came to terms with my new found status, but is it mutual. Things to preoccupy myself have made this month quite nice on many levels. I have a friend who has been there to listen to my stuff and I for them. I feel a lot closer to them now than I did even two weeks ago. It's nice at times to get new people's perspective.
If I have one gripe with September it is that you have decimated me financially. Lack of work, excessive spending (not all voluntary) and some bad habits have really tightened the screws. Many more nights spent at home than gallivanting about town.
I'm going to chalk up September as a good month, aside from the incredible weekend of the wedding, it's been a month of good and bad off-setting each other. Nothing too crazy, nothing too exciting other than that big event. I can handle months like September. October rolls in with promise for more money, playoff baseball, and possibly some new found friends or maybe some reconnecting with old. I look forward to October and the winter months with great optimism. I just feel something good on the horizon. Maybe it's just gas.
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