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Scattered Thoughts

I was thinking about a lot of stuff today.  Parts of my life are in such disarray, I'm embarrassed by them, yet some are quick fixes, just need the time put in.  Others need money to fix and that isn't something I have a lot of now.  Some of them need perseverance and a change of lifestyle.  Some of them need me to be more aggressive.  Some of them need me to be more understanding, while others need me to take a stand.  Some make me feel like I'm an irresponsible teenager and some make me feel like a wise old man.  Some make me feel insecure and some give me great confidence.

The last two weeks has been odd for me.  Emotions all over the place.  I've had a lot of fun, but had a lot of stress.  That stress caused me to make minor bad decisions, but it also caused me to lose some inhibitions.  People would be shocked at how shy and reserved I am normally.  Part of me really wants out of here and part of me knows it's not a reality.  This time of year, it always happens.  I crave to have good knees, to be forty pounds less and to be hiking up and down the waterfront road.

I'm going to try and get a few hours of sleep and then attack one of my issues.  It's one of those things I know will ruin my day.  I'm starting to realize there is a serious problem with the legal system.  When papers are written up with the words like "you have 20 days to respond from the date on this form" it is a logistical problem that it's dated April 16th and I received it May 13th.  I always say, you can't get blood from a stone, but I've been proven wrong before.

Good night....I hope!

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