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I love the snow and how pure it is. Nothing like walking in it and making those first steps. The crush from the weight of your foot, making that familiar sound. No matter how old I become, it will remind me of childhood. The walk towards our destination is filled with those steps over and over, but the walk back is different. The chilly air has taken hold of our sense and staring down, we see steps going in another direction, a place that was a goal. We're now returning to where we started and it will be like we never let. It's too bad friendships aren't like that. Too bad for some that their actions, their goals aren't easily rescinded. As of late, I've had friends make decisions, some unbeknownst to me at first, but then when I noticed, the dominoes fell. I don't care about these people anymore. Some I've know their entire lives and most of mine. They chose their path and they chose it, without ever discussing it. A simple explanation and no ill feelings would be had. I don't think they even know who they are, but their actions are irreversible. I feel betrayed and there is one emotion I can't forgive and that is being completely let down. I can fake niceties, but that's all they will receive from this day forth. I'm done caring and yes, loving them. I'm done making excuses for that which they lack, because they are no longer part of my life. If these dominoes continue and more people call them friends or family than do me, then my inner circles will just get smaller, tighter, better. For I'm not one to change my mind, not ever for this feeling. The snow doesn't get to cover back up these footsteps.

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  1. Peter GrobeJanuary 27, 2015 at 5:58 AM

    Jon, that's so cold. I hope you'll feel differently come spring,

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