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Free Writing - Take 87

A little different style today. Instead of the flowing babble about one or two subjects, I'm just going to state some things I've realized in the past 24-48 hours, maybe a few more.

I realized that I've evolved in how I watch films more over the last four years, than I did over the previous 30.
I realized, despite my love of food, I could really just live on two breakfasts a day for the rest of my life.
I realized that sleeping doesn't really make me feel any better about myself, either physically or psychologically. I need two hours here and there and then a crash session, but laying in bed, chatting with someone via text is as peaceful, as long as it's the right person.
I've realized that everyone I know whose mood changes based on the mere sight of the sun, is selfish. The rain forces you inside, where you bond. These people hate that, because it's not about them then, it's about us. They don't live their lives for others. Never have, never will. Oh and they'll be the first to tell you that you're wrong if you point this out, so don't. Let me take that bullet for you.
I've realized that no matter how much you try with certain people, the people that praise them will always get their attention. Shallowness embeds itself into people forever.
I've realized how much I hate small talk. Especially with people I know. It's as useless as asking someone if you look fat. If you're fat, you know the answer, if you're not, you're a narcissist.
I've realized that we're doomed when it comes to food conservation. When people I tell over and over that it matters to me, go out of their way to waste, it's upsetting. Not nearly as upsetting as it is to those who'd be willing to eat it anyway.
I've realized that there is nothing more gutless than passive aggressiveness. It's the most grotesque form of cowardice there is. Even when trying to perform it as a test, it sickens me and I give up. How passive aggressive people look in a mirror is something I'll never understand.
If you've read this far, you'll see a little irony, but passive aggressiveness serves a purpose, when the people you try and face, constantly turn their backs, but are eager to know what you say. So there you have it, even in a world where I try to stay true to myself, I must at times act like the cowards of the world. I'd apologize, but I always do. Let someone else do it for a change.

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