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I said too much!

In my life, I've said lots of things, both silly and meaningful. I've given good and bad advice. I've given my opinion when it's wanted, and more often when it wasn't. I've told people my political views, and explained why theirs is wrong. I've wrestled people's minds over religion and whatever the opposite is (reality?). I've had heart to hearts and I've probably bullshitted my way through some things. I've told people I loved them and told many more I hated them. Some I've told both.

This week, though I've known it to be true before, I realized that I have said too much. It appears that merely speaking my mind has cost me greatly. I did not say anything bad. I just said too many things, too mnay times. I didn't heed a warning, because my heart felt like it should open up. I said too much and now all might be lost. To lose something for opening up, for being honest, is a difficult thing. I don't know how to learn from this experience, because it is my nature to be open and honest. I just need to learn when I've said enough. I hope that maybe I can curb my enthusiasm, and in doing so, quiet my voice. But my heart told me otherwise and I followed it. I don't know how to feel. I can only hope this person, can find it within her heart, to remember the wonderful moments we shared, just weeks ago, and let me back into her life. I don't know if I can ask, because I've already said too much.

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