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Random Thoughts On Memorial Day Morning

Flags and crying eagles will be posted by those who vote for politicians who are keeping our vets from getting jobs, health care and housing. Flying the flag isn't being patriotic, helping others to better the country are. Especially when those in need, made the sacrifice so you didn't have to.

My face has broken out again and this might be the worst it's been. I'd thought it was OK and maybe I could get by without going back on the medication, but right now my cheeks look as though I've been attacked by a swarm of bees. I hate this.

People love to use the cliche, life is short. I have a challenge for all of those people. If life is short, give up watching television between 7pm and 11pm every single evening for one year. Tell me then if you think life is short. The amount of time we spend, doing nothing is frightening and the mindless devices we use to pass the time, if taken away, leave us with many more hours in the day than we can possibly conceive. Try it for one full week. Trust me, you'll be shocked how long life seems.

I told someone the other day that I have not had a French fry in 11 months. I've also not gotten drunk, eaten a good slice of pizza, walked more than a few yards, hugged or kissed a friend or just spent time with someone talking about anything even remotely meaningful to me. It's amazing how many times I've had to feign interest in someone else's tedious tales. Even that is gone and it's weird, you get used to yourself. I'm not a self talker, but maybe I am, just not vocally. I do thank a small handful who have recently reminded me what humor is and not just the pretense of humor, actual humor.

It's been ages since I've been to a proper BBQ, with food, drink and silly lawn games. Maybe a pool, which I'd ignore, but sitting in the hot sun, enjoying life. I think about the greatest BBQ I've ever been to. Three people, then briefly four. How much has changed and how much I loved that day and revisit it.

I don't know if someone has been just being cryptic in their own stupid way or if they are attempting to hurt me. I do know this, I don't care and I truly mean that. I've forgotten that friendship, which was entirely based on my forgiving and forgetting. That part of my life is over. I've been doing it since I was a child. I just wish I wasn't so stubborn a decade ago.

The vote on marriage equality made me realize how awful the people in our country can be. How were we not the pioneering country in this? How is France fining restaurants for food waste and America leads the world in it? Why are we so chronically behind the times and why do we continue to call ourselves the best country in the world. What are we best at?

I've joked with a friend that I can not be a parent, because all my most delicious dishes look like dirt. I made something that was so delightful the other night, but it looked like something that was pulled out of the clogged drain. It smelled like two different cultures colliding and resembled two trains doing likewise. What kid would eat this food, let alone say they liked it? I need a lesson on presentation. Why is all my food brown?

If anyone wants to know what the key to life is. It's sitting with a small group of people, who you want to share your time and thoughts with and not ever stopping to wonder what anyone who isn't there is doing. It's about that simple. I need to get back to that.



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