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Too Personal?

I've been deleting a lot of the things I write recently. On the surface, many of them appear to more of the same. I think in some ways they are, but in others, I'm giving a little too much info about myself. Not the type that results in insurance fraud or a hacked phone, but information about who I am. I don't think most people understand that my critiques, criticisms, and simple observations about the world around me are real insights into who I am and more importantly where I am.

I once told someone, in that very instant, they could ask me anything and I had to answer honestly. They chose not to ask me anything. That invitation, for them, is still open. I know what they will choose. Have you ever thought about what you'd ask someone if given the chance at a single question, with no reservations and no repercussions? It's daunting, more for the one asking than the one answering. Then again, how many people would answer a question like this honestly? How many people are that honest with themselves?

This blog itself started as a self-exploration based on my judgments and reactions to another's inefficiency and how I've allowed three things to be the benchmark for my existence. Honesty, Accountability, and Efficiency. While I accept my flaws, weaknesses, and failures, I've embraced this thought process and when forced to lie to protect another, it haunts me. When I fail, accepting fault is something that is difficult for us, because it is not in fact, human nature. When I succeed, it is a highwire act to accept it and be modest at the same time. With efficiency, I've becomes obsessed. Others may view my life and my choices as a waste of time, but what they don't see is how I've earned this time. While others are busy, I've done what they've done with efficiency and while they're buying their rewards financially, I'm paying myself with leisure. Who ends up happier? Maybe I'm wrong, but I can't remember the last tangible thing I bought that made me happy, other than food and drink.

What would you ask?
Who would you ask?
What would you answer?

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