Well my friends it's been a while. A lot has changed in the last few months. I don't really wanna
talk about the last 3 months. It's been an up and down kinda bumpy road. I somewhat feel like my life is at a crossroads. In some ways I look forward to the new challenges, but there is some fear. Normally I'm very open,but right now I'm feeling a little vulnerable. In the past I'd combat this fear with a silly joke or turn my attention to some other target, but now I feel helpless. I want to do so much, but not sure how. Years ago I'd burst through my problems like a battering ram, but these days I feel more like the Titanic running into an iceberg.
Recently financial difficulty is made it a little tough for me to enjoy life. In some ways have no one to blame but myself. Life is always easier when you blame others,but the reality is at some point we all have to take responsibility for all of our actions. I think at times my biggest problem is not my lack of taking responsibility but taking the wrong road. The answers are not gonna come in this blog, but what lies in the near future.
Despite all my problems this past year, I found it within myself to try and make some difference in the world. With limited funds I've donated to cancer research,illiteracy,children & adult food banks banks, juvenile diabetes,Haiti,Japan and most recently to the tornado victims in the Midwest. When I think about these things, they make me feel proud, but also make me question others concerns for our humankind. I can't afford to do this, but I look in the mirror and think to myself, it could be worse. I don't mean to preach, but how hard is it to give what you'd spend on a movie,to feed a family, teach someone to read, or provide a family with fresh water to drink?
We all take so much for granted in this life. This blog is not a cry for someone to feel bad for me. I do not look for pity. I do not look for help. I only ask that we all have the same compassion for those in need, as we'd want others to have for our families. This blog was written for one reason. I hope with all that is going on in the world, that just maybe one person reads this and tries to make even the smallest difference in a stranger's life.
Nobody likes a sermon, but thank you to anyone this touches. Hopefully, some might be moved to touch someone else's life.