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The Screen Has Been Too Dark

Every year, since I was young, I have watched movies. Almost every night. I've never been much on television, and rarely as an adult, have I had "my shows." In fact, I've not owned a working television for over seven years. I now have one in my bedroom, but so far, I've only watch sports. Movies are, and always will be "my shows."

In the course of any given year, I will watch approximately 350 movies. I rarely re-watch movie I've seen, but still will do so, if I've forgotten them. This time, last year, I was approaching movie #250. The year before, #240. This year, I've watched a paltry 130. While many may laugh and think of this as much ado about nothing, it has a great impact on my mood. Even more so, I've not had many people to discuss my films with, because nobody I have left in my life embraces the art of cinema, as I do.

I realize this all sounds petty, slightly conceited and incredibly minor, when one looks at the woes of surrounding and within my life, but it matters. It's like that cup of coffee in the morning or hot shower at night. It's that weekend drive, morning run or hour in the gym. It's that kiss on the forehead, mom used to give, after saying goodnight. Yes, it sounds crazy, but it means that much to me, and like most of my life's complaints, the reasons for my not having it in my life are all caused by me.


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