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(Not) Knowing Your Place

For most of my adult life, I've had a part-time job, working with kids, in which I was the director, supervisor, but never the boss, in the true sense. I now find myself in a position where I am a subordinate, in every sense of the word. It sucks! It sucks when you know something is being ignored, put off, or in some cases, done wrong. I'm 21 credits away from being able to be heard. Well, that may have been the case 20-odd years ago. Not now. My current boss is amazing, caring, and thoughtful but she's still my boss and while I've been there long enough to have some seniority, it's not enough to make me comfortable about pointing out the failures of others. Especially those with more time, not to be confused with more experience, and in some cases, more seniority. I think the lack of a structured division of "power," is a fatal flaw. I also think the lack of communication, not in terms of daily events, but in vision, is hurting the program. That being said, the leadership is strong enough to withstand what I view as flaws and it has and will continue with or without me. And this is where I must know my place. Speaking up has hurt me my entire life and I've continued to do it. Yesterday, I bit my lip and it bled. It continues to bleed. Will I let it continue? I may have to.

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  1. ChowOctober 6, 2018 at 5:12 PM

    Actions speak louder than words … be a power of example no need to say anything

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