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Free Writing - Take 22

Another 5am. No coyotes to be found. I looked.  Imagine if I joked and came upon one?  I've told the story before and I tried to feed one.  I get silly at time.  I'm not ready to jump out of a perfectly good airplane or bungee jump, but I'll try and give my leftovers to a wold animal.  Maybe I'm not as smart as I think.  I'm so tired of the same old same old. I want a change, but the change I want isn't logical.  I want to hide out in the woods for six months.  I want to wake at dawn and drink coffee while watching the birds play.  I want to sit and write and hope for something special to come out my fingertips.  I want to dangle my feet in a lake and sip a cool drink, while feeling the sun on my face and imagine some siren swimming up and keeping me company.  I want to nap outside, waking to catch the amber hues of the dying sun, while food sizzles on the grill.  I want to drink wine and watch movies, every classic I've been meaning to see.  I want to spend hour slaving away at the perfect novel or screenplay with all my chaotic thoughts coming to fruition in a concise thought for once in my life.  I want to fade away, while sounds of crickets and bullfrogs provide the soundtrack to my dreams.  I want to rinse and repeat, rain or shine, without the ring of the phone, the bill collectors, the silly phone apps, the inane texts at all hours of the day.  I want to go to bed without fear of the future or regrets from the past.  I want to sleep.

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